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S.O.S...I...R...FATTY!!!

Um..., so I jumped on the scale this morning for the heck of it to see how all of the recent stress in my life has been affecting me and I was disgusted. I now weigh 181 lbs. That has actually been my goal weight for years, however, it is all currently fat and I have to do something about it before I turn into a-blobius-morphis AKA uber fatty. My current job has me chained to a desk and the only things I have seen growing are my gut and my butt. After my recent layoff from my previous job, grandpa dieing, family issues,school challenges, and unwanted weather, I have found my self in a serious state of depression. I feel I have been depressed for a few months now and have been trying to break out of it and be more positive over all. I feel I have been successful at faking a positive attitude because family members have made comments to that end but I want it to be a more permanent thing. I feel that my eating, sleeping, exercise, and personal time habits are all out of whack and I need to fix that or die.